The last time I felt this disappointed was in the year 2006. It is all coming back to me now. Daunting! I just wished I knew why. I want.. I needed the answer to my question but we all know that is pretty much impossible.

I am greathearted for the supportive note I got. I sure hope there is a silver lining to this, to everything that is happening lately. I just don't want to see that face of disappointment on my daddy's face. It is rather heartbreaking. I know he's not mad at me, its the situation that saddens him. He was the one who keeps telling & reminding me to pursue further and although it can be a nag sometimes, I know he really means it. After receiving an answer to that much awaited process, it was as if someone dropped a huge tractor on me. I let him down.

I keep asking myself where did I go wrong..... I am wholly crushed.

But I am slowly, cautiously optimistic about this. I'll get through the rainy days.

-- Joshua 1: 8-9 --

Sigh. Felt much better after jotting this down.

Loves.

XXO

The last time I felt this disappointed was in the year 2006. It is all coming back to me now. Daunting! I just wished I knew why. I want.. I needed the answer to my question but we all know that is pretty much impossible.

I am greathearted for the supportive note I got. I sure hope there is a silver lining to this, to everything that is happening lately. I just don't want to see that face of disappointment on my daddy's face. It is rather heartbreaking. I know he's not mad at me, its the situation that saddens him. He was the one who keeps telling & reminding me to pursue further and although it can be a nag sometimes, I know he really means it. After receiving an answer to that much awaited process, it was as if someone dropped a huge tractor on me. I let him down.

I keep asking myself where did I go wrong..... I am wholly crushed.

But I am slowly, cautiously optimistic about this. I'll get through the rainy days.

-- Joshua 1: 8-9 --

Sigh. Felt much better after jotting this down.

Loves.

XXO